IVF #1: Pick A Mood, Any Mood

Look at me, I’ve got four nights of injections under my belt (pun intended). Boom! So far, so good.

Yesterday I was feeling pretty smug. I walked around my office all morning thinking, Huh, maybe I’ll just be one of the lucky ones who doesn’t have any side effects.

Not twenty minutes later I’m sitting at my computer crying. I can’t even remember what it was that made me tear up, but it was likely a meeting request or something else completely mundane. I was like, Why the hell am I crying right now? Ohhhhhhh. Yeah.

Then, at lunch I ran into a co-worker I’m friendly with. She gave me a big, genuine smile and a wave. I smiled back, but in my head I literally growled at her. I actually thought, Grrrrrrr. She gave me no cause to growl. I was just randomly pissed.

Later that afternoon, I became euphoric, talking to my friend in the mailroom, chatting a mile a minute and laughing like a maniac.

I couldn’t keep up with myself.

For reals, though, it could be so much worse. I’ve had some mild headaches and am definitely bloated, but overall I feel fine. My doctor said low-impact exercise was ok so I went to a yoga class this evening. It felt great!

In other news, during my ultrasound yesterday, my doctor saw either a) a follicle larger than all the other follicles or b) the re-emergence of my cyst. She couldn’t tell which it was without comparing that scan to past ultrasounds. Neither one of those things sounds very good to me, but she seemed to think either option was no big deal. I do trust her, so I’m trying to adopt her blasé attitude. Fingers crossed that neither cyst nor larger-than-its-buddies follicle messes stuff up.

My next ultrasound is tomorrow. I shall report back.