18 Weeks & Everything’s Still OK

Hi, friends. First of all, thank you for your comments on my last post. They were all wonderful and heartfelt, and made me feel significantly less crazy town. I’m sorry I haven’t responded yet, but I will. I love you guys.

I don’t have a single profound thing to say today. I’m thinking this is going to be a semi-boring update, so get your yawn faces on. In a nutshell: baby and I are ok. As of today, I am 18 weeks and 2 days. I had an OB appointment on Wednesday and that kid was moving around so much that my doctor couldn’t lock down a heartbeat! All we could hear for a minute were these swishing sounds. I’m thinking that means there’s a hyperactive boy growing in there. Anyone else have any gender guesses? When the doc finally got the heartbeat locked it sounded nice and strong at 158 bpm.

Following that appointment, I went to my dentist and got two more root canals. I only have three non-root-canaled teeth left in my mouth now. Can you even believe that? I kind of can’t. I half-jokingly asked my dentist if I had the most root canals out of any patient he’s ever had and he said “yes.” The man has been practicing for 33 years. Dude. I don’t even know what to say about that, so I’ll just leave it right there. Anyway, the one root canal went smoothly. The other was bleeding so much he couldn’t finish it. The dentist said he suspects it’s cracked, which means the root canal might fail. Which means a tooth extraction. The last time I had a tooth extracted, it took two hours and the head of dental surgery had to call over his colleague to help. Apparently I have the longest roots this side of the Mississippi. I do not want to go through this ordeal while pregnant. It’s already stressful enough getting root canals while pregnant. I’m really bummed about all of this, but it’s beyond my control.

I’m not sure if I told you guys about this yet, but I got a call from Dr. Braverman a few weeks ago. My long-awaited test results came back and according to him my immune system was “acting up again.” He doubled my prednisone dose. Dr. B assured me that he wasn’t worried about miscarriage at this point, but rather complications later in pregnancy. This increased dose will supposedly help prevent that. I was supposed to stop my intralipids after the first trimester, but those are continuing on for now, too. For those of you who don’t know, prednisone is kind of evil. I really try not to complain about it because honestly I am just grateful that it’s helping me stay pregnant. However, it causes major insomnia. I lay awake from roughly 1 am to 5 am every night. Once in a while I’ll take a Unisom and that helps, but I don’t feel comfortable doing that every night. More or less, this lack of sleep makes me feel insane. In-f*cking-sane. Like totally bonkers. I prowl around the house at night like a freaking cat, scouring the fridge for midnight snacks. Speaking of snacks, another fun little side effect of the pred is that I’m huge. I’ve been gaining a pound a week and my face is like a mylar balloon. Again, I’m growing a human, so whatevs, but it’s a little freaky to see the scale jump so much every time I go to the OB. The good news is that Dr. B wants to wean me off the prednisone by 24 weeks, so there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

All of the above BS aside, I really am doing ok. I’m still nervous as hell about our anatomy scan in two weeks, but other than that, I’ve been managing the anxiety. Here’s a couple of things that have been helping:

*The gym! I haven’t gone to gym with any regularity in three years (you can thank fertility treatments for that). But now that I don’t have endless doctors appointments and the first-trimester nausea has subsided, I have a little more energy (even with the lack of sleep, boom). It feels awesome you guys. I only do a half hour on the eliptical machine like three or four times a week, but even that feels like such a treat.

*I’ve been taking some space from Blog Land. I’ve found that it’s for some reason easier to manage my anxiety if I just keep my head down and don’t write about it.

*Staying busy. If I’m constantly moving or doing something I don’t dwell as much on the what ifs. I’ve been doing a lot of baking, organizing and even (gasp!) folding laundry.

*Planning a staycation. Tim and I booked a hotel in the ‘burbs next weekend. Lettie will spend the night with her grandparents. We’re going to get a couples massage and eat in a chain restaurant and swim in the hotel pool. I’m gonna get me a bottle of non-alcoholic wine, pop a Unisom and get a full night’s sleep. Romance, people!

Speaking of sleep, if you’re not snoozing yet, you deserve an award. I mean, I know how riveting reading about me folding laundry must be. Anyway, that’s about all she wrote. I’m still scared every single day, but I’m doing fine.



44 thoughts on “18 Weeks & Everything’s Still OK

  1. So glad things are going well and that your root canals went okay. An extraction would stress me out a bit. There’s no telling if you’re having a boy or a girl. Our little girl has always been nuts! She kicks the doppler and moves away. She was very uncooperative on every ultrasound, but I know she’s just strong enough move her body. But at 18 wks, they can move and they still have tons of room. The most important part, it sounds like you’ve got a very healthy baby in there. Also, I understand stay away from blogging for a bit, I find when I’m high anxiety, that not blogging does really help. Thanks for the update!

    1. Thank you! I love that you have a little mover, too. And haha she’s already showing you some sass by being uncooperative at the scans. She’s destined to be a strong woman! Xoxo.

  2. I’m still saying girl! Sounds a lot like dd1 was, an acrobat at every ultrasound. πŸ™‚ I’m sorry to hear about your teeth and the upped meds. Necessary evils eh. Sucks they fuck with your head & sleep so much. Definitely understand the distance from blog land. Enjoy your staycation! Xx

    1. You and my bestie Kate are holding steady at girl. Also, this one chick at work yesterday, who supposedly has a 100% guess success rate says it’s a girl, too. However, she bases her guesses on how the woman is carrying. She says boys carry high and girls carry low. I’m carrying low. However, my mom carried high with both her boys and girls, so I’m not sure how much that carrying theory holds merit. So we’ll see!

      It’s supposed to be snowpocalypse here this weekend, so I’m really hoping it doesn’t keep us from driving to the ‘burbs!

      1. Yeah the carrying thing is bogus I think,especially about carrying lower when it’s a second baby… Our ligaments and muscles aren’t nearly as tight as the first time around (sadly!). I’m excited to find out!!! Good luck for this weekend and the weather clearing up. At least if it happens while you’re gone you’ll have a good excuse to stay an extra night! πŸ˜‰ our weather has been pretty damn snowy too.

  3. Been thinking of you my friend! I’m glad to hear that overall everything is going well. Do whatever you need to do to keep that anxiety at bay. As for a gender guess, I’m going to need to see a bump pic to make an educated guess πŸ˜‰

    1. Thanks, friend! Maybe I will post a bump pic after the ultrasound if all goes well. I wish there was a way to post one without it showing up as the first thing people see in their feeds. I’d hate to hit someone with that if they were having a really crappy day in the trenches. There should be a way to hide photos until you click into the post! Maybe I’ll book end the post with, like, innocuous pics of a snowstorm or something haha. Anyway, how are you?

  4. Girl, you are quite simply never boring, even when you write about folding laundry! You poor thing having so much trouble with your teeth. I have been so afraid of the dentist all my life so could imagine the stress of having so much work done. 😦 I have great teeth and shitty gums which is annoying enough! I am so plsd you will get to phase off the pred in 6 weeks. Woooooo! Home stretch. Oh and btw I have been totally thinking boy for you!! I am itching to know if I am right. Hehe Anyway you know I’m always thinking of you and how it is going. Mucho love X

    1. Awwww, thanks! It seems there are more guesses on the boy side. Eeeeep, I can’t wait to find out! I think I’m going to bawl my eyes out when I do. And yeah, the fucking dentist, UGHHHH.

  5. This made me smile! Well, asides from the dental stuff, that made me cringe! Do whatever you need to do to help reduce your anxiety, you know you always have my love and support whether your write posts or comment. Also, I’m guessing boy, only because I think it would be amazing to have one of each! Lots of love my friend.

    1. Ha, glad I could make you smile in the midst of the craziness that is your life right now! One of each would be fun! It’s a win-win either way. I already know little girls are awesome and a boy would be something fun and different. I would finally get to experience these projectile pees I keep hearing about haha.

  6. I’ve been wondering how things were going. Good news!! And yep – prednisone is awful. I’m never taking that stuff ever again. Sorry about the root canals – that sounds horrid. I vote boy, but I have a soft spot for baby boys :-). I was scared all the way through too. Sounds like you’re doing great, keep it up xxx ps apols for choppy sentences – typing left hand and v tired hoping to get some sleep in a min! X

    1. Thanks, friend! I hope you got some sleep! If I have a boy you will definitely need to give me some pointers. I feel like I wouldn’t know the first thing to do with a boy. Other than cover him in kisses and snuggles, of course. πŸ™‚

  7. I am so happy for you! One day at a time! I can totally understand not wanting to blog about it all the time! It is nice to hear an update – and such a positive one! Looking forward to you being done with the dentist and prednisone. Also looking forward to hearing good news on the next scan. I will guess girl! πŸ™‚

    1. Thank you! One more guess for girl! This lady at work yesterday says she has a 100% success rate with gender guesses and she guessed girl. We’ll see, eeeeee! I just can’t wait to get through this ultrasound and then hopefully just be able to celebrate this person finally knowing if there’s a male female healthy baby in there. Fingers crossed!

  8. Glad all is well I have been thinking of you! Hopefully you don’t need the tooth extracted I too have exceptionally long strong roots and after 3 hrs in the chair and 3 dentists was sent home to come back to have it out under a ga.

    1. Thank you! Gosh, I hope the dental BS is behind me, too. And I so want to be excited about the next scan (it should be exciting, right?), but instead I am petrified. Just want to make it through at this point. One week from tomorrow!

    1. Thanks, Dawn! It’s supposed to snow like a gajillion inches here this weekend so I’m hoping it doesn’t derail our staycation. I need my Cheescake Factory and hotel pool!

  9. I’m so so so glad to know all is well or as well as can be in the circumstances. Prednisone is The Devil disguised in a bitter tiny pill. I remember that insomnia so well. And the falling asleep under my desk at work after months of it. I really hope you can get off the pred by 24w. That didn’t work for me but at least I didn’t get PE or IUGR so maybe it was effective? Anyway I’m sorry ’bout the moon face. Love your ‘burn sexy staycation plan. Zzzzzzzzzz…

    1. When were you able to finally get off the prednisone? Dr. B said something like how the placenta breaks down 98% of the pred by 24 weeks and that’s why he wants me off by then. I dunno, he talks so fast and so technically that I barely understand him half the time. Even science man Tim is sometimes like, huh? I remember when you had the endless insomnia. I really felt for you. Oh. and the funny thing is that I’m now using that pack of Unisom I bought to send to you! I knew it would come in handy. πŸ™‚

      1. I didn’t finish weaning off until 33 weeks and baby came at 36 so my relief from sleeplessness was short lived. Dr. B generally recommends getting off by 24 weeks. In my case that wasn’t possible but in most it is from what I understand. I didn’t see any negative effects on baby and the research suggests more serious risk from exposure in the first trimester so I don’t think it’s a crisis if you get stuck on it longer should test results suggest you still need it. I’m really hoping you can start weaning soon. My suggestion there would be to go slowly. He suggests cutting dose by half starting at 40 mg. So from 40 one day to 20 the next. That would not and did not work for me. I went by 5 mg for 5-7 days to 20 mg then by 2.5 mg but I’d had reactions going faster. I would suggest trying by no more than 5 mg to allow your adrenals time to get back on course.

        Ah the ironies of this all! Glad the unisom is giving you some relief at least.

  10. Glad to hear everything is fine. I recently had my wisdom tooth extracted and i was preparing myself for complications since my experience a few years ago was a disaster. However, everything went smoothly and literally, the tooth was out in 2 min. That’s when a dr knows his job!
    As for your immune reaction, I was about 14 weeks pregnant when dr. B told me the same. I also had to take prednisone 20 mg and then, at 24 week, i had a dose of ivig and that was all. Had no complications, thank God. I recommend you to stay away from anything that has sugar and gluten. I wasnt aware a lot even at the time of my pregnancy, but i was not eating all that a lot, but now, i learnt much more and one more thing, dont have amalgam filings. If you have any, replace it because they cause inflammation through the mercury they release with time.thats all and good luck!

    1. Oh good, glad to hear the wisdom tooth extraction went ok for you! And, oh no, why no sugar? I already don’t eat gluten and dairy per Dr. B’s request, and I fear giving up the sugar might just kill me. πŸ™‚

      1. Sugar, esp from the processed food, isn’t good. It causes a lot of inflammatory processes in the body,plus you have to be aware of gestational diabetes in pregnancy. Sugar from fruits is a different story. There is a lot of info on the net why it is recommended to avoid sugar.

  11. You poor thing! I can’t imagine having all that dental surgery. I don’t mind the dentist but I’ve not had to have root canal and it doesn’t sound nice! Especially whilst pregnant! I’m glad that Dr B has sorted your dose but it doesn’t sound fun to have insomnia. I do get that a fair amount and I find the only way I can deal with it is to read a book or something and try not to worry about it. Loved your descriptions of everything – very funny! Hope you feel better soon x

    1. Aw, thank you, friend! Ha, I have read so many books in the middle of the night the last few months. They are all trashy ones, but hey, I’m reading! Sometimes taking a shower helps relax me enough to fall asleep. It’s usually my backup, last-resort plan.

      1. Well I love reading so I’m happy to have extra hours to read… Although I regret it the next day! I do tell myself that my body will sleep when it needs to, and try not to get too stressed about it! Hope you get some sleep!

  12. So glad to hear from you! I get it too, it takes me a little bit to get my thoughts together, but ultimately end up posting it. SO glad to hear that things are going boring for you! Well except for the whole teeth thing. Ouchie! Your anatomy scan will be just fine! If they haven’t found anything irregular by now, they wont then either. Love the idea about a stay’cation! I need to do something like that when the weather gets warmer. It supposed to snow this weekend! ugh.

  13. Thanks, Kimberly! I need to pop in and see how you’re doing. I wish your blog showed up in my feed! And as for the anatomy scan, I soooo hope you’re right. I haven’t had a scan since 10 weeks (and no genetic testing either), though, so I feel like a lot can happen during that time. However, Dr. Braverman did say during my 10 week scan that he saw nothing amiss. Fingers crossed, eeeeep!

  14. I’m so happy things are going well!! My mouth hurt reading your teeth story ouch! But glad it’s all been going okay. I’ll guess a little boy too but I suck at this game πŸ™‚

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