Graduation Day & Baby B


Friday was an amazing day. I “graduated” from my fertility specialist. That means, from now on, I am under the care of an OB, just like a regular pregnant lady. To say it was emotional is a big, fat understatement. The ultrasound tech gave us our final ultrasound and Baby A was looking good, right on track for 10 weeks, even moving his or her hand in a waving motion.

I haven’t mentioned our ultrasound tech yet, but she is wonderful. Not only technically good at her job, but extremely calming and caring. She never seemed rushed and always took the time to answer all of our questions thoroughly. And believe me, my science teacher husband had a ton of questions about not super-relevent things, like ultrasound viewsΒ and such. After our scan, I thanked her profusely for being so good at her job. And then I started to cry. Not tearing up, but like actual shaking cries. Then Tim started crying, too. The tech gave me a big hug and said, “I’ve been doing this for a long time, I understand. That kid is growing so well. You’re doing great.” I’m pretty sure she even teared up a little, too.

Afterwards we met with our doctor and he officially released us from the practice. I didn’t cry again, but I did give him a bear hug and several “thank yous.”

Wow, you guys. Just wow. I really never thought I would see this day. Truly. I know we’re still not out of the woods yet, but this is a huge milestone. So for now,Β I’m putting the worries aside and I’m just going to bask in this glow, and give thanks to the Universe and those babies and my body for getting us this far. I can’t even write this without crying.

In sad news, at our 9 week ultrasound, Baby B no longer had a heartbeat. I haven’t updated you guys on this yet because I don’t really knowΒ what to say. I’m not sure how I feel, honestly. It’s a loss, for sure. But then there’s this miracle growing right next door. It’s just a weird situation. I do know, however, that I am extremely thankful to Baby B for coming here briefly and helping his brother or sister.. I will be grateful for the rest of my life.

Next up: final visit with Dr. Braverman tomorrow and first OB visit on Friday. Keep growing big and strong, Baby A. You’re doing great!

62 thoughts on “Graduation Day & Baby B

  1. Hooray!!! Congratulations on graduating, and on a happy and healthy 10-week scan for Baby A! What amazing news! I’m sorry Baby A won’t get to grow up with a little sibling, but glad that Baby B was able to help him or her along in the journey to life. What an amazing thing to have a healthy Baby A at this point, and I am just so happy and hopeful for you.

  2. Awwwwww I cried reading about that emotional experience! You have come so far and every day brings us both closer to the reality of holding a baby in our arms. I am so happy for you xxx

  3. Congratulations on graduating it is such a milestone!! So sorry about baby B but they will always be in your heart and it is beautiful that you can always remember what they did for their little brother or sister xxx

  4. So sorry to hear about sweet baby b, but it’s great to hear that baby a is doing well. Congratulations on getting to move on to a regular OB! It is a wonderful (but a little scary) feeling. I hope everything continues to go really well for you!

  5. Baby B was probably the kindest human being who ever lived without even being born xxx
    If that’s the kind of sweet children you have while they are still in the womb, I cannot wait to see the good that Baby A will bring to the world.

  6. Congrats! What’s it like to graduate from the RE? I imagine confetti, party streamers and dancing into the evening! Right? Ha! Must be amazing and I’m so glad for you! God bless baby B for his /her help and may baby A keep on doing it’s thing!

  7. So many emotions reading this! A few tears too. I am so happy that baby A is doing so well and you got to graduate yay! Little baby B was a very special brother/sister to baby A and will forever hold a place in your heart. xxx It is indeed a milestone for you and baby A to reach, graduating from the clinic πŸ™‚ Amazing news. I look forward to future updates. xox

      1. Yeah I bet it is weird because you spend your whole week counting down to that appointment! You are now doing what most other mums to be take for granted and just carrying on with the day to day of pregnancy, lol yeah freaky! πŸ™‚

  8. Wow!!! So happy Graduation! You are totally right, its such a huge milestone to cross when you are officially a “normalish” pregnant person. If all goes well, I’ll be graduating on Wednesday (8w4d). Its going to be a huge change for me. I’ve never been this far in a pregnancy. I only hope I get to see my doctor and nurse one more time. And you’re also right, with baby B, its just a situation that “is'” or “was” as this point. But its nice to awknowelege him/her. Excited for your future, keep writing!

  9. I’m sorry about baby B. It is indeed a complex situation. But oh so well done too – you must feel so elated and emotional!! I am so pleased for you and hope everything is straightforward from here onwards. Grow baby grow! xxx

      1. I sure hope so! Although, lucky me, I will get to stay with my RE through the pregnancy, which is great since I really like him! I am transferring on Saturday! Nervous, scared, excited……

  10. Congratulations!!! What brilliant news and what a huge milestone, indeed! Oh how I remember those emotions – I cried the whole way to my last RE appointment. So glad things are going so well for you. 😘

  11. Happy graduation day, you regular pregnant lady, you! I’m so happy you’ve cleared yet another hurdle! I think you’re gonna have smooth sailing from here on out. And I’m super crazy happy that Baby A is doing everything h/she should be. That said, I’m so sorry about Baby B , your angel baby. I can’t imagine how much you can’t sort out exactly how TO feel right now. I hope your appointment today was totally normal and uneventful.

    1. Aw, thank you, lady! And I sure hope you’re right that everything is smooth sailing from here. Please, please, pleeeeease. Little scare at my OB appt when they couldn’t find the heartbeat on the doppler, but they did an ultrasound and the kid was there, looking just fine. Phew. How are you holding up?

      1. I’m okay-ish. More on the “ish” end of it all. I’ve been meaning to email you so we can make plans to hang sometime. Glad everything’s looking great πŸ™‚

  12. Congratulations on graduating. I dream of this day πŸ™‚
    Baby A sounds like he/she is going amazing, keep growing baby πŸ™‚
    I am so sorry to hear about baby B and I totally understand your confusion. Hugs to you!

  13. This is such a beautiful and emotional post, I’m so happy for you! I’m so very sorry about Baby B, that’s a very sad loss, but as you say, he/she helped their sibling and that’s a beautiful thing. I’m hoping for a smooth and happy pregnancy for you, lots of love xx

  14. Congratulations– this is amazing!! You give me so much hope! I have some similarities with you!! I have a 4 year old son, I live in the Philly burbs, I am under Dr. B’s protocol for rpl after the Vidali lap, and I am having my transfer (single FET) this week- yikes! Thank you for your blog- it makes me feel not alone and also lots of helpful information. Would you mind sharing where you get your intralipids done? Thanks!

    1. Oh my gosh, what a small world! I’m so excited to “meet” someone with such a similar situation. I get my intralipids done through Horizon Healthcare. The nurse comes to your house at whatever time is convenient for you. It’s super easy. If you go with them, request nurse Amber — she’s amazing! And tell her I said hi. πŸ™‚ Feel free to email me anytime with questions. I’m happy to help: I’m hoping to read a success story from you soon! Here’s the link to Horizon: Good luck with your transfer!

      1. Ok I am actually using them and they are great! Just feel bad about plunking $400 each time they come. Well, I am so happy to “meet” you too!! I will let you know how this goes– no pressure! LOL
        In the meantime, I will enjoy reading your blog and wish you a great pregnancy! Ps- I will definitely take you up on your offer of asking q’s πŸ˜‰

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