IVF #1: The Results

~ theskyandback

Um, so. It worked?

IT F*CKING WORKED! I am in complete shock. I really, really can’t believe it.

I am pregnant.

I have to confess that I found this out on Saturday. I felt like such a slinker for not telling you guys right away, but I refrained for a couple of reasons. One, I wanted to get a second hCG blood test (also known as a beta) to see if my numbers were rising properly. I felt like I couldn’t share anything unless I had at least a sense of what direction things were going in. The other reason is that this blog is not anonymous, so we had to tell our parents before spilling the beans to, like, everyone. This makes me really nervous, by the way — the fact that that so many of my real-life family and friends will know I’m pregnant after reading this. It’s so early. But I set out to be open about the process from the very beginning and I’m not going to stop now. Plus, I’ve shared all the bad news, so now I might as well share the good, too, right? So my sweet, real-life friends, please keep this quiet for now. Please? We probably won’t officially announce anything until at least 14 weeks. At least.

So far, everything is going well. My beta on Saturday, which was nine days past five-day transfer, was 240. Today’s beta was 960. For anyone who doesn’t know, they like to see the beta numbers double every 48 hours. My numbers had a doubling time of 36 hours, so we are good so far. I have one more blood test on Friday. Eek. This waiting in 1 – 3 day increments to find out how things are going is so dramatic.

I meant to post an update during the two week wait, but I was so convinced this cycle was out that I just couldn’t do it. I didn’t think I could handle getting “false hope” from you guys, only to have the test be negative anyway. I have very specific PMS symptoms. They start on the same day of my cycle and progress in the exact same way each time. I didn’t have these symptoms the other two times I’ve been pregnant. But this time, my PMS symptoms showed up on the exact day they usually do and progressed in the exact same way. I was wholeheartedly convinced this round didn’t work. I mean, I was 100% certain. I even had Tim convinced. I didn’t even test at home before the blood test because I only wanted to get the bad news once. This made for an amusing chat with the nurse. Here’s how the conversation went down on Saturday:

Nurse: Tanya?

Me: Yeah (said in a monotone, put-me-out-of-my-misery voice).

N: It’s positive!

M: SHUT UP!

N: It’s true.

M: SHUT UP!

N: Yes, it’s true!

M: OH MY GOD! I was certain it was negative! I feel like I’m dreaming right now!

N: Well, you better pinch yourself because it’s real.

Thank you so much to everyone for all of your thoughts and prayers throughout this process. I could feel them. I really could. Please keep them coming, as we aren’t out of the woods yet, not even close. I don’t think I could have made it through IVF without your support. Ok, I might have made it, but it would have been sincerely crappy without you there pulling for me.

And to all of you amazing bloggers who are still waiting and still trying, please know that I think about you all of the time. I tell stories about you to my husband. I think of you as my friends, even though I’ve never met you in real life. I am hoping for you with everything I’ve got. I want to give a special shout out to myrainbowdream and g2the4thpower who are still awaiting the results of their recent IVFs, as well as to Mother-Blogger, who just found out she is pregnant through IVF after seven years of trying!

So here I sit. Pregnant. I have a long, long, looooooong way to go. But today I am pregnant.

And today is awesome.

76 thoughts on “IVF #1: The Results”

  3. SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!! *pumps fists* *cartwheels* *orders celebratory cake* *eats cake*
    I am so motherflipping happy for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    IT WORKED!!!!!!!!!!! Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!

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  4. So, so overjoyed for you guys! All this craziness was totally worth it. Modern medicine is truly amazing! I’ve really been glued to your progress since I’ve never known the nitty-gritty details of the IVF process. And now….Nollaig Shona Dhuit!

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    1. Thank you! Eeee, it is kind of high, right? If we didn’t put in only one embryo I’d be wondering about twins. I mean, I guess I could still end up with twins, but it’s a slim chance.

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  16. It’s not every day that a post moves me to tears but today, this one did! Eeeeee!!!! I am stinkin’ happy for you! You deserve this lady! Will be keeping you in my prayers! Xoxo

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  22. Omg! This is the best news! So so happy for you 😀 congratulations. Heres to happy and healthy pregnancy. Looking forward to all the updates. Thanks for the shout out too, I’ve been good no test this morning lol. Xx

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  23. aaaahhhhomg!!!! that is amazing news! I have been wondering and wondering how you were getting on – and then when I checked my feed this morning it just said “The Results” and I was like omg!!! what is it gonna saaaayyyyyy!!!!!
    Hahaha! I’m super-excited for you. And I know how long the road is, even after a positive result, so I know you are probably feeling cautious about what’s ahead, but as you said: For today, you are pregnant. Congratulations on such great news x

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  25. Congrats Tanya!!! Thank you for sharing – I too agree it’s never too early to share good news 🙂 why not share the good with the bad?! That being said, we’re pregnant too. 🙂 acupuncture for back w/one thrown in for fertility, and a new job & lunar eclipse = forces were finally in our favor (right at the time when we were supposed to be ‘taking a break’ ha..). I’m 11wks. Been telling small amt of people but, fingers crossed we’ll go live around Christmas 🙂

    So happy for you and will continue to keep you in my thoughts as you work through these next few wks. I know it can be very not fun at times! 🙂 good luck, enjoy while you can, and hope this holiday is filled with lots and lots of joy 🙂 -Shannon

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  29. YAY! I am so glad to hear it. I love hearing when one of TTC friends gets pregnant. Hoping that little bean sticks with no issue. Congrats buddy.

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  32. OMFG YES! Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes! Even though you stink a little bit for not telling us sooner 😉 Kidding. I understand given your blog is not anon. Makes it tricky. But YAY! This is freaking AH-maaaaaaay-ZING. I am so happy for you chicky. So pleased. This is fabulously brilliant news. YAY!

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    1. Thank you!!!!! And oooh girl, I know–I really wanted to tell you right away, but I didn’t know how to contact you other than via blog comments. If you’re so inclined, send me an email to theskyandbackblog@gmail.com so we can keep in touch and I can tell you any breaking news right away! Hopefully this will all go smoothly and there won’t be any mother-effing breaking news for nine months, but just in case.

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