Letter to My Little Lady: I Am Always Here

You, at 12 weeks.

Dear Little Fish,

This week you started daycare and I went back to work. You appear to be ok with this arrangement. Your teachers tell me you’re eating and sleeping just fine, and that you smile when they talk to you.

I, on the other hand, am not so great. It seems unnatural to leave you each morning. It feels wrong to pick you up in the evenings and not know what made you smile, cry or coo that day.

I miss you in a big, achy kind of way. I wonder if you’re getting enough love and if you feel safe. I hope you’re too young to miss me back, but I have no idea. The mind of a baby is a wildly mysterious place.

Here’s a little secret, though: I am never really gone. Imagine a long silver thread—light as air, yet strong as steel—that connects me to you. It doesn’t matter if you go to daycare, summer camp, college or the bottom of the sea. We will never be more than a heartbeat apart.


3 thoughts on “Letter to My Little Lady: I Am Always Here

  1. First of all, that’s an awesome blanket! Secondly, I remember when I went back to work, it felt like I was missing a limb. Olive was seemingly fine. It is the mother’s job to hold on to the connection, to be the one making sure the ties that bind stay bound. It sounds like with your strong silvery thread, you and your daughter are going to do just fine in that endeavor. Sending you love!

  2. Tan that is such a sweet, touching & completely believable analogy. Colette is such a lucky little girl to have you as a momma 🙂

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